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[17 Aug 2004|09:50pm] |
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Whee decided to revive this place. errr though im quite sure it's gonna die out again soon.
Ms chng sucks.
Wgy is my life sucks.
Haha random thoughts. =)
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| Pipa |
[02 Feb 2004|10:40pm] |
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Pipa.. isn't it supposed to be my passion? my drive.. for now..
But now all i feel is disappointment in myself. disgust. sHAME. i dunno. yes, maybe its coz nafa raised its standard. and if it didnt i know i'd be taking grade 6 this yr. but.. it cannot be. i feel suddenly.. smashed. i'm going to take grade 5 instead. yes the songs are those that initially were grade 6. nafa raised its standards SO WHAT? i just cant stop feeling like shit. i feel like i've lost my drive.
It's my passion, isn't it? why am i letting this hold me down?.. maybe coz i think there's no point having a passion without being able to achieve much from it..
I feel so ashamed of myself. just when i started believing in myself..
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| Done~ |
[28 Jan 2004|09:22pm] |
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Not under construction anymore.. layout is more or less done (gillian dont scream) except i need to turn my user pic pink to go with the layout, and i need to decrease the table widths, sth i've attempted countless times but have failed terribly in. >.< gillian, help!
And i dunno if anyone noticed, but i shamelessly added myself as an lj friend. hahahahaha. i feel spasticated.
And i'm so sleepy. bah. that's not a good sign coz i've still got lit to pia!! where's melissa!!! weren't we supposed to meet online at 8 to do the proj.. look at the time now.. and she's still not here. -_-" *waits*
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| Happy cny |
[26 Jan 2004|05:22pm] |
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Okay.. just thought it was high time i updated this place.. ^^ happy cny peeps.. i know this is eRbit late but nvm, cny lasts for 15 days so theoretically i'm not late. heeheee. ok this is crap.
I feel jealous again. very. and insulted. >.< oh well. does that make me a sucker or whatt. gah life sucks for now..
-Is ill-. yea. maybe i should go SLEEP instead of hogging the comppp.~ haaa. okok. shall try to go sleep. till dinner maybe.
So much incomplete hw. argh. but no motivation or energy to do. sheesh.
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| GAH |
[10 Jan 2004|09:36pm] |
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I originally typed this in my dx entry but because i decided to be nice (=P), i took it off and pasted it here instead.
*censoredword*, sometimes i really dunno what wgy is up to. dunno what she's thinking. dunno who she thinks she is. but OOPS, i guess i shan't elaborate further, lest certain people flood my comment box again. btw if it floods again i guess i'll just delete them. hahaha. and phonecalls will not be entertained either.
I dunno why some people love to contradict themselves lor. they say, anything you're unhappy about, just voice it out.. but guess what. the moment you do voice it out, not only do they stick to blah's side, you even get f words spewing right at your face! cool sia. *rolls eyes* *rolls eyes again* *rolls eyes for third time*
And one should realise that a phone call will not change someone's pov. because you need to say things that make sense first. it's not the length of a phonecall that's going to make a diff.. it's the content.
Sadly, a certain sth hasn't changed my pov, but has made me cling on tighter, closer, to my pov. yup. and what with more and more stuff coming into view, i am utterly disgusted. infuriated. simply speechless sometimes. and sometimes i feel so angry i almost cry.
I really hate the way she deals with things. i hate her unprofessionalism, and i hate the way she interferes. it gets me so emotionally worked up. who cares that she always says i'm good or whatever. i mean seriously lor who cares. does she even know a thing. noooo. and the thing is we're going to be stuck with her forever. ok hopefully not forever. but it's not only her. it's her as well.
Nvm. i was silly to ever think someone was zai. i mean, leadership qualities are admirable. look at hitler. but once one uses it in hitler's way.. ah then it's a different matter. one loses his/her respectability.
Eat that.
With certain things and people sticking around, when will we ever soar to "greater heights"? i guess never. not with people practising PROPAGANDA. i voice my opinion but at least i dont mass influence people with no evidence. i dont abuse authority.
Cos i think it's wrong. and i think it's disgusting.
That's why i'm disgusted.
You think that once an incident is over, everything will be ok again. but you merely took a short-term measure. one day it's going to surface again.. and by then it'd be alot worse. yar? and what's more this time it's already as suppressed as can be managed.
Btw i've been talking about a few different people in this entry and it's all jumbled up with no organisation of thoughts whatsoever; it doesnt mean that 2 consecutive paragraphs refer to the same thing, so please don't assume anything.
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[07 Jan 2004|07:07pm] |
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I was thinking of moving my blog (not this) to nexuswebs.net. lala. move again. =P eh actually i feel weird thinking that people are reading this lj.. coz i'm actually talking to myself here.. dunno if i will make sense to others.. lolx. but anyway i made my nexuswebs liao. lalala. sometimes i really think i've adopted zhaomeng's crappiness. gah.
I wonder if i'm making sense. But then again, i always wonder that.. =/
Ok anyway obs in 5 days' time!! yayy. but theres sth i'm worried about.. >.< oh wells but other than that, really looking fwd to it.. but not looking fwd to life after obs. -_-"
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| CCA orientation |
[04 Jan 2004|08:34pm] |
Three cheers for rgco, cca orientation was a great success. (= we got 80+ signups.
And i promise i'm removing all links or traces of my lj frm my dx soon yar.
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| Syco |
[02 Jan 2004|10:23pm] |
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CENSORED.
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| testing |
[01 Jan 2004|04:29pm] |
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This entry is koped from my diary-x. i'm using it as a test entry here.
Happy new year's day and happy new year to everyone.
Conversely my new year's day is not much of a happy one. i dunno why.. everything has to come at the wrong time. seriously. things always happen for me at the wrong time. and it's so coincidental..
It's stupid to cry.
Well and that time.. i was so distracted.. distracted even in front of the people who weren't supposed to sense i was distracted.
Nvm. i feel so detached..
Detached..
No one really cares, isn't it.
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